A happy new mom

Warning, sappy post

I don't think anything could have prepared me for the full joy of motherhood. It is something that I always knew I wanted, to be a mother. It was also something that I knew I would be good at. I've always had a way with children, (it may have something to do with continued love of games and imagination). Being a mother was something I always knew I would enjoy. I just could never have dreamed of how amazing it really would be. All the overflowing emotions, all the abundance of love I now seem to possess, the fact that all my thoughts can be centered around this little being.

It's amazing how much I love her. She is like a piece of my heart, cut out and formed into this perfect little girl. When she cries, my heart breaks for her. All I want is to make sure she is happy. When she smiles it makes me melt with an overflowing happiness.

From that first moment I saw her, when they dropped her slimy pink body on my chest, I fell in love with her. It's amazing that you can love something as ugly as a newborn baby. (I'm just being realistic, when they are first born, it isn't a pretty sight.) For some reason though, through my new mother eyes, she couldn't have been more perfect.

Then there was the first time I breastfed her. That was another moment of overflowing emotion. It is the most satisfying thing I have ever done. To know that you are feeding your child, that you are providing nourishment, it is an amazing thought.

I have come to really look forward to feeding times, (I am even OK with the late night feedings) as not a chore but a break. Feeding time it is a wonderful thing I can share with her. It is our time. To just sit there, relaxed, watching her eat is so calming. It is when I can be completely selfish and have her all to myself again. There is no one else that can provide for her in the same way, it is my daily gift to her. Then came the day when she looked at me, really looked at me, while I fed her. Her big blue eyes looking up at me, recognizing me as 'the milk', was the most perfect "Thank you".



I can't wait for the next big moment she gives to me.