Baby talk

I'm sitting here at work feeling the ever stronger kicks coming from my ever growing stomach.

It is just amazing to me how much my body and my little baby have changed in the last couple months. I went from not feeling anything and wishing I could feel those first fluttery kicks, to now, where even Dave can feel them.

I remember the first time we heard that little heart beat. It was so clear and strong, at a time when I felt like being pregnant was all in my head. It didn't feel real yet. I wasn't showing and other than feeling sick all the time, a baby was just an idea, a wish.

Then there was the first, fluttery little kicks. I was on the bus, alone, on my way home and I felt something. Something moving inside of me. Not in a creepy, alien invading my body way, but an exciting, whole new world opening up way. I wanted to giggle and call Dave right away. At the same time, the bus was so empty I didn't want everyone to hear me. So I just sat there. A huge smile on my face, hand on my twittering stomach and I'm sure a glow of excitement everyone could feel.

As the weeks went on those kicks became more steady and more predictable. I knew when baby would be kicking, when I was relaxing.

Then there was the Ultrasound, last week.

I was lucky enough that Dave and his sister were able to join me. Dave's sister is quite excited to be a new little Auntie. She has been excited since the day we told her. (at times I feel like she is even more excited than I am) We were all sitting in the little room. Me, laying there with warm goo all over my stomach, waiting for the first little view of something alive.

First there was a mess of lines and unidentifiable... stuff. Then there it was! A little baby back. There were all the ribs, perfect and aligned. Then there was a little arm, and tiny hands with the cutest little fingers! The arms were moving and the fingers waving. Then there were the kicking legs and the teeny toes. We even got to look at the little baby face that is inside of me. Apparently this was not appreciated by the baby as it, bashfully covered it's face and tired to swat us away.

We even got to see a moving cross section of that little heart. That heart that had beat for the first time inside of me, that heart that made it all feel so real, that heart... right there on the screen in front of me, beating inside of me.
It was amazing.
It gave the kicks and the ideas a face.
A tiny little baby face.
My little baby's face.