Bad knit blogger...

Well, it looks like I have been a very bad knit blogger! I didn't realize it had been November the last time I blogged!!! That was a long time! I am so sorry, I will try to be better...

So, I am now just a week away from my due date. Baby could come any time now! EEEeeek!

That is an exciting and mind boggling thought. I am not stupid, and would consider myself a fairly intelligent person, and yet this seems like a surprise. When Dave and I "started" this whole baby thing, I knew that a baby was the end result. Heck, that was what we were going for! But now, now that it is almost here it seems so strange... so surprising!

In just a week, more or less, we will have a baby in our life. A baby that will turn into a child, that will turn into a teenager, that will turn into an adult! We have a new person, that we have created, that we are going to bring into the world! This person could end up curing cancer, writing a book, influencing the world, or just creating more little people! All of this just seemed to large for me to consider before this point. I feel foolish that this is such a surprise to me, it's not like I didn't know what I was getting into...

Even when I stop thinking about my impending potential to someday become a grandmother, just the thought of a baby in our lives seems so crazy! We are going to have a little one to look after, all the time, from now on... for the rest of our lives! This isn't a scary thought, more of just a shock. I think I may be starting to realize that my life will forever revolve around someone else. Not that I was, or am, really selfish, just that from now on my feelings or wants will be second. I can't decide to go nuts, leave Dave and run around the world for a year or two. (not that I was considering this, just that it would not even be a crazy option!) Then there is the simple things, like knit night. Me going to knit night has always been about me, for the most part. If I am in a good mood I go, if I am tired, I stay home. Now it will be about the whim of a little baby... It will be about weather Dave will be around to look after the little one, or rather if I want to pump and leave baby home, or if baby is in a good mood and I want to take him/her with me. Then going home will not be decided by me, it will depend on baby's mood...

Then when I stop thinking about all those selfish things, just the thought that we will have this cute little one with us is amazing! I am going to have a BABY! A cute, little, sweet smelling, cuddly baby! A baby that will do things for the first time, under my watch full supervision. I will get to see the baby smile, laugh, coo, sneeze, crawl, walk, and talk for the first time!

On weekend mornings, when Dave and I are just relaxing in bed (and avoiding getting up, as our apartment is 15.5 degrees Celsius, and the bed is so nice and warm...) we have started just laying there feeling, and watching baby kick and roll in my belly. It is a wonderful, relaxing and happy time. Last week Dave mentioned that he was excited to just lay there, in the same way, only with baby between us. With us, poking and feeling his/her tiny fingers and toes, and just to watch it sleep. At that moment it really hit me and I became really excited. I wanted that moment. I wanted to just be able to see our little one. I just wanted to be able to have that perfect moment as soon as possible.

I guess that's all I have to wait for now, that perfect moment with our perfect little baby.